In a Constant State of Ruin We Find Light
I’ve heard the world is made of light & shadows,
but I do not believe this or any thing I can’t hold.
The world is also made of the smell of your neck & lemons
& bullets & ink & empty glasses & garlic & kisses &
all of these things will wither – which is to say
fade away – & become a reason in the soil
for why things thrive or die. Tiny seismics of the day
vibrating beneath the crust of what we see.
When I turned the corner at the museum & found myself
in the room full of sarcophagi lit from the skylight,
the stone shone golden & for a moment I almost believed
in something bigger than ruin. I almost believed
in the ghostly bloom of light across time. I almost
climbed inside the stone box like a shell.
I learned sarcophagus means flesh-eating stone
& I want to be the stone that holds all the flesh I love
because no shadow could ever mean anything
in a place as dark as the inside of that box.
I want to believe I could contain anything more than breath
& dust. I want to live like ruins touched only by lights & shadows.
Don’t Blame Me For the Sun’s Reluctance
There is a myth about August, but I live like it is truth &
the city was nothing & nothing more than I needed, so
when you said Don’t blame me for the sun’s reluctance what you don’t know
is I turned to god to blame him & he was sleeping. It was dark
when our drinks were done, all that was left was what looked like the sun &
was instead the candle’s flame reflecting off the empty bottom of the glasses.
You want me to see how small things can look & I want you to see anything
bigger than the hairs on my arm – see how they look like light bulb filaments in this light?
Our teeth wanted different things, I could tell by the way the glass sounded against them &
when I said, Let’s consider… & you said, I’m tired of considering, just let it be & there was nothing
I could do because my want becomes want becomes the reason my hands are tied
behind my back & you are whispering something I can’t hear into my pillow.
Do you want to hear the myth about August? Have you ever taken a bath &
it is so hot it feels cold when you first step in? Look me in the eyes, see that flame?